I have felt separate from the mainstream world long before I started modding myself and to feel as a part of it isn’t something that is an ideal for me. I am who I am, complete with many things that separate myself from the mainstream world around me and I wouldn’t change any of it in order to achieve some sort of ideal of belonging. Why should I bother to belong?
When it comes to interacting with those in my circle, I always try to do so with respect and understanding, but I’m never going to be a part of that and I never desire to be a part of that. Many things that are considered more traditional values, ideals and aspirations simply don’t make much sense for me, on a personal level. Combine my lack of understanding for traditional ideals with the fact that what ideals I do have tend towards the very non-traditional, and its really no wonder that I’ve never felt a part of the society I live in.
Why do I live the ‘Mod Lifestyle’? I’m not sure that I do and I suppose it might depend on what the ‘Mod Lifestyle’ really is. Do I modify myself and will I continue to modify myself for many years to come? Absolutely that is a yes. But does that mean I live a particular lifestyle because of it? I don’t think so. I am more likely to say I live a gamer (tabletop or LARP) lifestyle than that I live a Mod Lifestyle because that factors far more into my day to day life and the sorts of people I choose to associate with.
For me, to modify isn’t about a lifestyle, its about who I am on the inside being reflected on the outside. No matter what lifestyle I chose to live, I would still feel as I feel on the inside and body modification allows me to express that. When I hear the term Mod Lifestyle, I think of those who are really involved in the body modification community and especially those who are body modification practitioners. I do not fall under either of these categories, not for any dislike of those who are involved in the body modification community, but simply because those individuals have never been in my close social circle. I surround myself with understanding and accepting people, but not necessarily people who modify themselves.