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May 30, 2013
I knew from a very young age.. My father had two tattoos, one each shoulder. The ink mark on his right shoulder was a cover-up, and a very good one at that. It depicted a tribal-type Raven, and the left was something of a demon pitchfork, complete with a face. Though I am not a fan of many tribal tattoos, as they are typically overused and under-thought (excluding traditional Tā moko markings), that bird impacted me from a very young age. I knew I would one day honor the markings of my father with a similar, 'updated', marking on my own shoulder. I had my ears pierced and began stretching at 13 (as a male in a Southern family, where most modification was discouraged, I was very proud). I pierced my own lip and had my left nostril pierced at a parlor when I was 14. It was love, not only with tattooing and scarification, but piercing. I knew I would find wholeness and peace-of-mind with modifications.
June 15, 2013
When I was very young I saw this movie Tattoo, and since then I have been in love. Body modification is beautiful and it fascinates me. I got my first tattoos from artist friends when I was underage. At the time all my friends were into piercing themselves with safety pins. At the time the only place you could get a piercing was at the mall in a piercing pagoda. All my first piercings were done with a gun: cartilage and nose. I'm so happy that piercing has progressed into this amazing art form, and so many people are a part of it.
January 16, 2013
May 22, 2013
I have been drawing on myself since I was able to pick up a pen or a marker. I remember tracing my dad's tattoos and telling him I want to have "pretty pictures" all over…. These small moments turned me into the canvas I am.
July 25, 2013
October 27, 2013
I got my first mod, a tatto, at 18. But I knew it was gonna be a lifelong path when I turned 19. I was diagnosed with a serious illness that year and with me being so out of control healthwise, here was a way for me to take my body back and make it mine again. Each time I contemplate a mod, and if I choose to do it, I feel like "My body, My life, My choice."
November 27, 2013
For as long as I can remember! I think Marilyn Manson and the Lizardman were my earliest exposures- but I have always been in love with it. And everyday, I fall even more in love with it. And while my parent's didn't approve immediately, and not for a long time to be honest, they have grown to become interested in it, rather than shun it.
April 7, 2014
I knew this when I was about 14. I didn't know at the time that there was a name for what I wanted to accomplish but my thoughts were that I would pierce myself in penance, and after my first actual piecings at 17 I realized that it shouldn't be used in penance but rather in recognizing that I feel pain because I exist and it heals because I am healthy and that God granted me life.
Be yourself out loud
January 26, 2013
I didn't really know in the beginning. My life was a mess when I was a teen and I started to self harm. Simple little cuts at first, then they started getting bigger and deeper. When I was about 17 one of my classmates had stretched lobes and I played with the idea for a bit. Having grown up in a baptist household, I was unsure at first.. But made the leap and started piercing myself (yeah… I know, but I'm pretty sure a lot of us started there) when I felt the need to cut. And when i ran out of things i could do myself i started stretching my lobes. Then when I was 18 my brother and I got matching tattoos for our coven (We practiced green witchcraft at the time). And its just… evolved?… from there. All of my mods have meaning to me on some level, even if it is just aesthetic. Though many were done in ritual or as a reminder that I can still feel.
** I always get asked why I got coexist (yeah, like the bumper sticker) on my left forearm, and I've never told anyone this before. It helps hide the scars and is an outward expression of being Raised in a household that encouraged religious freedom and exploration. Since I have crafted my own form from aspects of other religions I've thought were good/ useful. It only made sense to get it. It is also a reminder to be good to and get along with my vessel.
Its kind of funny how it worked. I used body modification as a way to channel my energy into an artistic, worthy form. To feel more complete instead of tearing myself apart. I've hated how I look for years and even though I am not always aware of my 'modified status' I feel this is how I should look. It is how I see myself When I am dreaming.
does anyone else have a compiled list of mods/ jewelry they want? Or is it just my compulsion towards list making?
August 28, 2014
I can't remember a time when I did not like tattoos. However, I remember exactly when I knew that body modification was for me. I had just finished Boot Camp in 1989 and went to Chicago, Ill. just to walk around while my other underage buddies tried to get into bars. I walked into a bookstore and started browsing (yeah.. I love to read, even met my wife in a comic book store lol.. another story there). I stumbled across a book titled: Modern Primitives ( I think that was the name). It was all about body modification and had tons of pics. I stood there all night going over that book again and again. I fell in love with the ideas and mods in that book and marveled at the courage and artistry that it portrayed. I couldn't buy the book. My military buddies found me there and saw the book and freaked out about it etc. so I put it down and left.
That book never left my mind though. Even though I risked Court Martial and other problems, I pierced my tongue, nipples, and navel and started collecting tattoos from various countries. I eventually had to remove my piercings due to getting very ill a few years after the Gulf War and had to be in constant care of Military Doctors, also my wife at the time hated them and constantly fussed about them and refused to try to understand that they meant a lot to me (even though they were pretty 'tame' piercings). Needless to say, that marriage ended when I finally had enough of pretending to be who she wanted me to be and so on.
I spent a little over 20 years in various Government careers: Military, Law Enforcement and a few other things like Communications Tech. for Motorola for L.E. equipment. I managed to add some tattoos over that time but always missed my piercings and always felt that I was pretending to be something or someone I wasn't. Fast forward to 6.5 years ago and a terminal cancer diagnosis with 6 months to live. I decided that if I ever felt strong enough to do it, I would concentrate on modding my body how I wanted it to be before I died even though my careers kept me from doing anything visible to the public. I didn't die in 6 months (duuhhh, I'm posting here). I've been in too many surgeries and treatments to list here and I'm still in treatment for the terminal metastatic cancer throughout my body and kept working as a Police Detective until 2 years ago when the treatments and weakness became too much for me to deal with the stress and physical aspects of my job. I went through some more very harsh treatments and I have managed to slow the cancer down substantially and be here for my wife and children (I remarried and have the most awesome wife on Earth ).
About 1 year ago I started gaining strength for no apparent reason except that I had scheduled some more tattoo work to be done on my torso and I realized that this is what I have been waiting for. I am finally strong enough to go back to modding my body and I'm no longer being held back by my careers' regulations. I have been feeling better and better and gotten stronger and even gained weight and muscle mass since I have been discussing tattoo concepts and piercing choices with my oldest daughter (She is just now 17 and I have taken her for various piercings and have designed her first Tattoo and helped her stretch her ears for her plugs).
So, that is when I realized that body mod isn't just for me, but it is so much a part of my spirituality that just planning mods has a positive impact on my Spirit, Mind and Body.
TLDR; 1989 I knew Body Modding was for me 2013 I discovered that Body Modding was an integral part of my Spirituality and even helps me live day to day with the Grim Reaper hovering over my head :P.
I know this was a long freaking post, but I got carried away and wanted to share a little more of my story.
Love all of you! Take care.
December 3, 2014
Since the beginning of time. I had this strange obsession with ear piercings as a child. I was never allowed them and went behind my parents wishes and did it myself. I got a huge thrill off that. I had to take them out. However, it was that first set of piercings that really set me off to pursue more and more and more. To try new things. Piercings lead to scarification which lead to tattoos.
The Deadliest Sin is to Have Never Sinned at all.
December 3, 2014
the first time I remember consciously wanting a tattoo was when I was 14. the first time I got one I was 17 and I loved it. every year I have gotten more and more tattoos and piercings. I do not have anyone besides my best friend who understands that the more I modify the more like myself and the more at peace I feel. I know eventually how I want to look and I work hard to get closer a little bit at a time but I get stares already! I tattoo myself also and I know that I will not be able to stop modifying until I reach my goal! I am so in love with it and it brings me happiness and peace.
<3 I modify so that one day my body will look the same as my soul <3
November 27, 2013
July 25, 2011
Mars87, I knew modification was for me as a young child. I was abused as a child through my teens; strangely enough the pain I rather enjoyed. It was relieving. I began with what some consider "self harm" however it was the 'aaah' moment when nothing is on your mind but peace. Later became tattoos, piercings, scarifications, then the easy hair modifications.
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