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I'm feeling a little depressed right now because I had to remove one of my subdermal horn implants. They have been my favourite and most meaningful mod to date and it really really sucks that I had to remove one of them. Unfortunately it was rejecting. I had been having a difficult time of healing my right horn from the beginning and an unfortunate collision with the corner of a wall before it was fully healed sealed its fate. It was just starting to look like it was finally healing properly when it got struck and after that it remained red and unhappy. I had thought it was finally actually starting to improve again until I noticed that the implant itself was visible, which it was supposed to be completely covered with skin, thus being subdermal. I visited my body modification artist today and he confirmed that it was rejecting and had to come out in order to minimize scarring.
Hopefully I'll be able to get it redone in a few weeks or a couple of months. If all goes well, the scar tissue will be minimal and I'll be able to get it put back in in the same location as it was the first time, thus meaning that I won't have to touch the well healed left horn implant. If there is too much scar tissue, however, I may have to remove the left one as well so that when I get the right one re-done, both horns can be even.
So, suffice to say I'm feeling a little down right now. Anyone else have experience with piercings or implants rejecting? How did that make you feel and how did you deal with it?
October 3, 2011
I will certainly keep updates posted. I got to see my artist at the end of the month in order to put some subdermal ribs into my right arm and he says by then it'll be healed enough so that he'll know if we'll be able to reinsert the implant back into the same location or if the scar tissue is bad enough that we'll have to put it in a new location. I'm really hoping it'll heal nice and clean with a minimum of scarring, because if we have to find a new location for it that'll mean removing the nicely healed left one and reinserting that one as well, otherwise I'll end up with lopsided horns.
October 3, 2011
Sorry to hear about the implant vampyremage, i understadn what it's like to lose a mod.
The way i try and see it is that rejection of a mod is a still a part of the journey, the trials, of learning about yourself. Persevere and things will work out fine.
I think that's a very good way to look at it Oakbear. I'll try to keep that in mind for sure. In a way, if all of this is easy I don't think it'd be as meaningful when there is a successful end result. It may be a little depressing, but its only a temporary setback and its certainly not going to stop my journey. Its nothing more than a temporary roadblock.
True enough, it's just a temporary set back.
Now you know what it feels like, you have more knowledge, maybe even an understanding of how to prevent it in future. All worth having!
July 14, 2012
was very sad because they made me look like a butterfly.
was very sad because they made me look like a butterfly.
May 24, 2012
Many mods for me have come and gone, and I know it is natural and even healthy. My biggest loss was my vertical bridge. It was so special to me because my friend Mariona Ozono who owns Ozono body piercing in Bilbao, Spain and I had them done together in California. We were both there for a piercing seminar at Gauntlet (remember them Kevin Cook?) which was the first "piercing only" studio in America. She and I both cried when we took them out, thousands of miles away from each other, and I wore fancy bindis to adorn that area for years after. Of course, I still have a slight scar and I still really like that. I did remove it before it migrated all the way out.
How is the healing of your implant going? In your picture it looks great!!
February 27, 2012
Man, I really hate losing modifications. I haven't had one reject on me, but I have had to take one out before. It made me really sad and I felt like I was missing something. It's just not the same.
But, I got it redone a couple years later, so now I can be all happy again. Keep us posted on what your artist says! I'm sending good juju to you so hopefully you don't have to touch the other horn, because that would suck.
July 7, 2012
I'm currently in the process of purposely losing 2 ear lobe piercings that I stupidly got pierced with a gun a couple of years ago. I am stretching my initial holes, and the second would just get in the way, and my third lobe just felt like a lump of scars, so I'm closing that one (which I think it's pretty much healed already), and then getting it repierced at a slightly higher gauge (maybe 12), so I can stretch that one in the future. But right now, I'm working on my first lobe .
ColaChampagne – the scar tissue might cause an issue stretching. Make sure you go to a good artist and explain where you are heading with stretching. There's ways they can correct or compensate for this in how they pierce.
July 12, 2011
I've only been forced out of one mod. It was an inner eyebrow piercing on the right side. I had a straight 12g barbell in there. It was my first eyebrow piercing of any kind and I found that it would snag and catch on many things.
I was still in the aftercare process (extended because of these incidents) when I was spinning poi for the first time. The two poi balls collided above my head and one of them came down and struck me on the right between the eyebrows.
Aside from a slight abrasion, (the poi is made of Kevlar weave so it won't burn) it caught the barbell and tore it almost completely out. There was only a tiny bit of flesh holding on to the barbell.
I washed my hands, removed the barbell, and set about cleaning the kerosene and soot out of wound. At the time I felt it was a minor tragedy, but it left a decent scar that still looks okay. In the end, I think I'd rather have the scar, but to have something removed against my will was difficult.
Vampyre, I wish you the best in your quest. I hope everything goes well and you're able to have exactly the horns you want. Indeed, I hope you're able to have everything you want. Good luck.
June 19, 2012
Wow, that sounds so tedious :/ I guess it can also prove how commited you are to them.
I've only been forced out of two mods, 1st was a webbing piercing on my hand (between my finger and thumb) and shortly after getting it pierced I lost the ball and had too keep touching it in order for it to remain in place and not fall out. I wasn't able to purchase a new ball for a few days but within no time, it became extremely infected, I tried to so hard to keep it, but it just wouldn't heal (especially because the bar was way too short) and I realised my stubborn behaviour wasn't really getting me anywhere and that it was best to just remove the jewellery, and let it heal rather than risk any serious damage my hand. This was also about 3 and a half years ago when I was still quite ignorant in regards to body modification and very early in my journey.
My second mod was a skin diver in my finger that I got a few months ago and being a skin diver on a part of my body that is constantly in motion due to normal daily routines as well as work, it kept on getting snagged and coming out (I later found out that it was also pierced too shallow) it must have come out about 10 times for me before it fell out and I couldn't find it before it healed over.
I have also got a scaffold piercing in my right ear that was pierced by the same person who did my skin diver which wasn't in a very good place to begin with ( Might try to upload pictures). for the past 5 months now it has been migrating to really thick parts of my ear and causing a lot of pain and discomfort. It's really been upsetting me coming to terms with the fact that I'll have to take it out especially considering I'd wanted it for so long before hand. But I take it as a bit of a learing curve, rather than 'mourn' over my loss. I choose to value that experience and think about what lesson I learnt. For example these experiences taught me to find a piercer I can trust (which can be really difficult to find) and remain loyal to that piercer. Properly research what I'm getting into before I modify my body (which is just common sense I suppose…) And probably the biggest one is patience I used to be quite embarressed about sharing these experiences with people as it made me feel a bit silly for being so ignorant, until I realised it's the only way to grow as a person .
Hope all goes well on your journey and that I haven't rambled excessively (:
Never a failure, always a lesson.
June 26, 2012
In the past year, I've lost several piercings (industrial and both nipples). They were all approx 1 year old and fine until they started getting infected. It was bizarre. I plan to have them all re-done at one point. Sorry about your horns, maybe you can get it re-done some day in the future?
July 12, 2011
Regular readers of this forum can tell you that I am in the habit of writing very long posts. I don't consider it rambling because I go to great lengths to make sure that what I'm writing is clear and to the point. It's just so happens that some ideas take more explaining than others.
So, as long as your post doesn't run in circles and actually makes sense, you can write as much as you like. Based on the feedback I've gotten from several of my posts, I think you'll find you'll be appreciated for your efforts, rather than scolded.
Having said that, I don't think you rambled a bit. I think you've gained a lot from losing these mods, and I find your perspective on the experiences to be very healthy and positive.
If any well-healed piercing starts getting infected, start the aftercare all over again. I'm not sure how it started or exactly what happened in your case, but this could prevent the loss/rejection of a piercing which, until then, had been behaving itself.
Overall, despite the disappointment associated with losing a mod, I think it's important that we learn from the experience, rather than be discouraged by it. This is vital for all aspects of life, not just mods. Any time we fall short of a goal we've set for ourselves it's important to learn from the experience and move on. Don't allow the disappointments in life to discourage you from trying again and making yourself and your life exactly what you want it to be.
August 6, 2012
Had 8 in my naval and a surface on my stomach trying to put a ball in each of the voids of the spider web around my naval. The surface and 5 of the navals rejected. Dealt with constant keloids practically the whole time so I knew they were doomed. Good luck vampyre. Hope they work out this time.
August 17, 2012
I had to have a labret removed due to an accident and severe damage to the area. I tried to keep it but the swelling in my lip became so severe that the skin started to engulf the mod itself. I suppose there is a time when stubbornness and tenaciousness is a fault. It was extremely painful but I insisted on leaving it in until it got to the point is was entirely embedded in flesh and had to have it surgically removed.
Thanks everyone for sharing.
The more i think about this the more i love how much can be learnt from losing a mod, and that process of healing. When something happens not of our choice, sometimes those lessons can be more potent than what we learn from our planned course of action, as they challenge our ideas about ourselves, and grant insight outside our known experience.
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